Midnight Rattling Of A Tired Man
The heart is a funny thing. It makes you yearn for stuff you never dreamed of and once you got it and becomes a part of you, you realized that it brought more pain and sorrow but yet... it is hard to let go. You can never imagine living life without it ever again. It could be the desirous of materialistic possessions or the fondness of another individual. We struggle to keep things afloat, tolerating any nonsense we may encounter while hoping everyday that the best is yet to come. This is especially true for the case of the latter.
Recently, like a fresh new trend of fashion on parade, a lot of my friends and people I know confided the problems they are facing to me.
Money, husband, wife, boyfriend, girlfriend, career, family, lesbians, gays, people they fucked, people they hope to fuck, people who fucked them,....etc...etc...etc.
SAME OLD SHIT!
Some of them confessed that they're getting attached or married cos they think it is time. Love is the LAST thing on their mind. Afraid of loneness and contended with just being with someone, they took the plunge. In addition, it works both ways. It is the same case for both parties. No wonder divorce rate is on the rise!
On the other hand, some of them are afraid to take the plunge cos love is the FIRST thing on their mind and they want more than being with someone. They want a listening ear. Some want securities and some ardor the uncertainties in life, not knowing what may happen next.
However, I do understand. When that special someone does not understand or make the effort to understand you, it hurts knowing that you are still facing the world alone.
So one group will just find someone they can live and be friends with instead of a lover. The other group tends to hate the stable life, knowing what will happen in the future with your love one is a big turn-off. Excitement they say, so they wandered off to the unknown, often encountering jerks or bitches in the process.
I personally disagreed with this two type of postulation and do not wished to elaborate.
To me..... IT IS ALL CRAP!
From my experiences, people in the first group are normally mature in thinking and have been hurt badly before. Thus, lost their faith in love. The latter is associated with youngsters who have not grown mentality and obviously still in need of a spanking cos they are not that battered as they complain to be.
It is hard trying to find someone who is willingly to tolerate and understand you in this god-forsaken era. No one is willing to bear the hardship anymore. The vows of marriage are nothing more than a required custom with no strength of bearing any truth in it.
If you have that special someone who is with you though not psychically but mentally and is willing to take shit from you, treasure them.
It doesn't matter if you alone by yourself or walking in a crowd like a school of salmons on orchard road areas, deep within your heart, unbearable feeling of loneness still grip you with its never releasing shapeless hands. It is not company that you seek but community of thoughts or same mentally that you are after.
Whether day or night, you're trapped alone with no rays of light, just floating in the void of your own subsistence. Praying that someone might accept your existence. Alas in the end, we are all alone in the continuance of time. For we all die alone.
Recently, like a fresh new trend of fashion on parade, a lot of my friends and people I know confided the problems they are facing to me.
Money, husband, wife, boyfriend, girlfriend, career, family, lesbians, gays, people they fucked, people they hope to fuck, people who fucked them,....etc...etc...etc.
SAME OLD SHIT!
Some of them confessed that they're getting attached or married cos they think it is time. Love is the LAST thing on their mind. Afraid of loneness and contended with just being with someone, they took the plunge. In addition, it works both ways. It is the same case for both parties. No wonder divorce rate is on the rise!
On the other hand, some of them are afraid to take the plunge cos love is the FIRST thing on their mind and they want more than being with someone. They want a listening ear. Some want securities and some ardor the uncertainties in life, not knowing what may happen next.
However, I do understand. When that special someone does not understand or make the effort to understand you, it hurts knowing that you are still facing the world alone.
So one group will just find someone they can live and be friends with instead of a lover. The other group tends to hate the stable life, knowing what will happen in the future with your love one is a big turn-off. Excitement they say, so they wandered off to the unknown, often encountering jerks or bitches in the process.
I personally disagreed with this two type of postulation and do not wished to elaborate.
To me..... IT IS ALL CRAP!
From my experiences, people in the first group are normally mature in thinking and have been hurt badly before. Thus, lost their faith in love. The latter is associated with youngsters who have not grown mentality and obviously still in need of a spanking cos they are not that battered as they complain to be.
It is hard trying to find someone who is willingly to tolerate and understand you in this god-forsaken era. No one is willing to bear the hardship anymore. The vows of marriage are nothing more than a required custom with no strength of bearing any truth in it.
If you have that special someone who is with you though not psychically but mentally and is willing to take shit from you, treasure them.
It doesn't matter if you alone by yourself or walking in a crowd like a school of salmons on orchard road areas, deep within your heart, unbearable feeling of loneness still grip you with its never releasing shapeless hands. It is not company that you seek but community of thoughts or same mentally that you are after.
Whether day or night, you're trapped alone with no rays of light, just floating in the void of your own subsistence. Praying that someone might accept your existence. Alas in the end, we are all alone in the continuance of time. For we all die alone.
posted by Mr Lee at 1:55:00 AM
2 Comments:
uncle uncle!!
er, what about those like me? 25yo already but still never been attached before?
:)
Wah lau! Enjoy yourself while you still can man! See the world and achieve your goals. It's a whole different ball game when you're attached.(If you want to be the ever-loving and understanding boyfriend type.)
For your case,you're attached and engaged with seeking knowledge. Never let "her" down.
P/s: Btw mate, I'm not really that old lah! Haha
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